Better In Time by Leona Lewis

I hate to share this because this is too personal.

But I can't help it.

I don't want to say anything, 

but it's just that I was not feeling okay for the past days or shall I say for almost a month, I guess.

Been trying to figure things out...

I was not prepared for anything to happen.

The short notice of knowing that you will leave for a while

drown me to the feeling of being so alone.

Not loved at all and almost taken for granted.

This is I guess the effect of our not being together and 
away from our dearest home.

Am glad that you sent me a text message today.
I felt a little bit good after almost twelve hours of not 
exchanging each others text messages.
I chose not to contact you.
Just to give time and space for us to think.

This is not so us, you know that.
This is the first time ever that you left me hanging in the air.
It hurts me so much more than your ever think.
I hate that you think that everything is so damn fine.
No, it's not...

I know for sure that everything happens for a reason.
You have your reasons and I respect you for that.
I just hope you too will respect my feelings.

I was hurt and I took this as the consequence 
of my untoward behavior unto you.
I don't expect to much from you.
But I'm afraid of that moment if I'm letting go.

Enough!
I just want this sad and hurt feelings to end 
because no matter what, I still love you...
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It's been the longest winter without you, 

I didn't know where to turn to.
See, somehow I can't forget you,
After all that we've been through.

Going, coming... thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know,

If you didn't notice, boy, you mean everything.
Quickly I'm learning to love again,
All I know is I'm gon' be okay

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, ooh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really love you,
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV,
Without something there that would remind me
It wasn't all that easy
To just put aside your feelings.
If I'm dreaming, don't wanna lie,
Hurt my feelings

But that's the path
I believe in,

And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice, well
You mean everything.
Quickly I'm learning to love again,
All I know is I'm gon' be okay

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, ooh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really love you,
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to, ooooooh
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me (no more you and me)

It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be.
No matter how hard it is,
I'll be fine without you, Yes I will.

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too ohhhh
It'll all get better in time ooooh
And even though I really love you

I wanna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time, woah
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, yeahh
It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to